It's hard not to hold onto things. Hard to let go of notions of what's right in this world - things that are often ingrained in you as a kid. That happiness means having a corporate job, having 2.5 kids, getting a house with a mortgage and acquiring the hoards of things you can by having money. But when you get down to it - do any of those things guarantee happiness?

Does holding onto Ryan's clothing produce happiness? No. It just makes it harder to let it go. I know that by giving away his clothing it won't bring him back. Keeping his clothing won't bring him back either. His memories will remain tucked in my heart for the rest of my life.


More on these thoughts later...