Heavy weights

Wow - the two year mark is rapidly approaching.

I cleaned out my closet tonight. I had the time and it's been on my mind for some time to do - and finally I summoned the motivation to complete that massive project.

It was somewhat bittersweet - touching and feeling the clothing that I wore when you were alive. The styles that I wore - so outdated by now - yet frozen in time when I think about the times we spent together while I wore them.

I filled 5 big bags. Five! Five bags and 15 years worth of memories. The dust kitties when scurrying in a hurry, I was ruthless with what I decided to discard.

I feel like I'm building momentum - and I've been thinking about moving. Downsizing and getting rid of the clutter is a move in the right direction. I can tell something is going to change in the near future with regard to my dwelling - and it feels like it's right, the time has come.

Some days I feel stronger than others. Today I was able to put on my badge of courage and dive in - and I'm glad I did. But damn Ryan, I still miss you to pieces.