I'm starting to think that I should rename this blog as acceptance. Some time has passed since Ryan died and I'm starting to constantly see the sunny side of things again. I know that there will be some fluctuation of this feeling - which is only natural. Yet every day I seem to have more and more happiness in my life as things even out.

I rode my motorcycle the past two days in a row and I realized just how much fun it is to drive those machines. To feeling of air whisking you around, the speed of a machine underneath, the power at the flick of a wrist.

For the first time since this weekend, I just thought how nice it would be to have shared that experience with Ryan. He would have eaten up every single detail as I told him about it. He would listen with such passion and enthusiasm - making me feel like the most important person in the world. Man, I do miss him.